Lisa Guerrero was often considered “the luckiest woman in sports” after landing her dream job as a part-time correspondent Monday night soccer in 2013. In her new book warrior She reveals how the role turned into a nightmare that took her to a dark place.
Producer Freddie Gaudelli hired Guerrero with the goal of changing the landscape of sports broadcasting by bringing in a reporter who also turned to entertainment, Guerrero explained in an excerpt released by sports illustrated. Finally, external opinions about her appearance, her knowledge and her value as a sports reporter also became a point of contention between her and her employer.
“‘Nothing but a teleprompter reader.’ “A ridiculous new low for ABC.” “Another example of looks taking precedence over talent.” “A chick.” ‘A hit for women.'” Guerrero listed some of the responses to her hiring announcement. ” What had I done to incite such anger? I was stunned, hurt and stunned by the media reaction.”
As audiences put aside Guerrero’s previous decade of experience as a sportscaster, they delved into her “controversial past” as a model, actress and cheerleader. Ultimately, photos of the reporter were published, which made her ponder Monday night soccer in danger.
“I had done a photo shoot for PRT, a men’s lifestyle magazine that was scheduled to appear at the start of the football season. This was a strategic decision to promote my brand and raise my profile while at [The Best Damn Sports Show Period]. But when the media got wind of the photos of me in black and white lingerie, it reinforced their idea that I had been hired Monday night soccer for the wrong reasons.”
Guerrero recalled that Disney executives were “angry” when they found out about the photoshoot and questioned their place on their “family-friendly show.” However, she attributed the reaction to a “faked shock” when the company’s advertising department allegedly negotiated with them PRT to put them on the cover.
“Then I posed for the show’s promotional photos in a powder blue blazer alongside [co-hosts Al Michaels and John Madden]. Yet the photos that made the cut, including on a Times Square billboard, weren’t from that official ABC photoshoot,” she continued. Top and a come-here look — that’s from a modeling gig I years ago had done before.”
While Guerrero believed she was originally hired because of her qualifications, she noted how the negative publicity affected her working relationships and how much her producer trusted her to get the job done.
“A lot of eyes would be on me too – they would judge me, write about me, comment on me. Any mistake would be magnified. My outfit and makeup – even my lip gloss – would be scrutinized,” she said of the lead up to the first game of the regular season Monday night soccer. And for all her preparation, her producer instructed her to memorize and not improvise the words he was going to write for her.
“I thought I knew what was behind this request. Freddie might have been embarrassed by the way the media portrayed me. I felt like he couldn’t fire me because I was his first job,” she wrote. “So instead of firing me, Freddie micromanaged me. Maybe he thought he was the brains behind the chick.”
Guerrero continued: “I had been writing my copy for a decade, but suddenly I felt reduced to the puppet of a ventriloquist. When I recited Freddie’s words, it was unnatural. It didn’t sound like me. I felt like an actress playing a role I wasn’t supposed to play. And there were critics who picked up on that. They would say I look uncomfortable from looking at my notebook too much. But I had been instructed by Freddie to deliver his script verbatim. If I didn’t, I would be drilled out.”
She recalled Gaudelli screaming into her headphones during live broadcasts and suffering under pressure to excel at her job despite everything being against her. This suffering accompanied her at all times of the day and night, even in her happiest moments.
Now an award-winning investigative journalist, Guerrero can’t believe how dark it got as she wrote about her engagement to baseball player boyfriend Scott Erickson, which was soured by the Depression’s undercurrent. “Who decides to get married when they’re also thinking about killing themselves?” she remembered thinking.
She also spoke about a miscarriage while doing a live sports report.
“I didn’t see that I was in a dangerous downward spiral. I didn’t see that I had completely detached myself from reality. I didn’t see how sick I was – mentally and physically. I was completely checked out.” she wrote.
After this experience, she decided to take a stand.
“I thought of everything I had lost on that sideline – my dignity, my courage and now my pregnancy. There was nothing left to take. In that moment, I vowed not to let Freddie control me as much,” she said. “During the last few games I’ve stopped memorizing Freddie’s notes. I spoke in my own voice. I pulled out my headphones during my reports.
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